conversation got me here; another night alone in the city

thePASSION.
Monday, August 05, 2013

reappraisal, my go-to coping strategy.
except when it comes to relationships.
how do you reappraise someone else's reality away.

grow up.
that was the ammunition of the previous generation.

taking off.
unpacked and unnerved.
never had much affinity with them interfaces.

the spirit of passing it on.
take away a person's power, tamper with his mood.
and the lack of self-awareness will result in him wrestling for compensation from someone else.

there's a place that i know
its not pretty there and few have ever gone.

~~perfect~~ion at 9:03 PM

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Friday, June 28, 2013

Why, my soul, are you downcast?

Why so disturbed within me?

Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise Him, my Saviour and my God.

- Psalm 42:11 -

when you're standing at the crossroads

and dont know which path to choose

let me come along

cause even if you're wrong

i'll stand by you.

~~perfect~~ion at 2:21 PM

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Sunday, May 12, 2013

cleaning up my closet.

in the blank spaces of time.
what fills your mind?
that, is what, or who, you are devoted to.

disillusionment.
happens to the best of us.

a change is coming.

what i was when i was back then.
photos have their way.

i woke up, disoriented.
twice.
what just happened, lost my bearings.
in a familiar place, yet fraught with alien emotions.
confusing, no, more terrifying.
then i realized, He was no longer near.
for what light mixes with darkness?
and holiness with sin?
i confess and repent.

we sailed on together
we drifted apart
and here you are by my side.

~~perfect~~ion at 2:40 PM

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Thursday, May 02, 2013

"Love cherishes and protects."
- Pastor Wilson -

absent-mindedness.
the cue to knowing i'm stressed and not coping.

think the irony is.
when you're always able to be with person A, you start to miss person B or think of person C.
person A is overlooked and under-valued.
that is the unfortunate reality of becoming taken for granted: not seeing what you already have.

"You didn't love her. You just didn't want to be alone. Or maybe, maybe she was just good for your ego. Or, or maybe she made you feel better about your miserable life, but you didn't love her. Because you don't destroy people you love."
- Grey's Anatomy -

for all we want is, the longer end.
make the right choices, is how we prevent.
read intentions for what they really are.
don't be beguiled by fishermen with wide nets.

who is your heart and mind on, truly?

where is your heart
what i really want is to believe you.

~~perfect~~ion at 2:03 PM

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Tuesday, April 09, 2013

structure.
or else.

some people idolize pop stars.
others, movie icons.
i am, strangely enough, rendered star-struck in the presence of highly-acclaimed researchers (and their disciples).

no more cases of "used to's".
they become wrenches.
like a towel thats been wrung and hung out to dry.

dont expect quality without quality input.

i bless the rains down in Africa
gonna take some time to do the things we never had.

~~perfect~~ion at 10:46 PM

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Monday, April 08, 2013

i know, as surely as i lay
there in the dark
my heart will ache tonight.

but fighting all the demons will take time
will take time.

~~perfect~~ion at 10:19 PM

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Saturday, March 30, 2013

pursued in the subtle ways from a past long gone.

just a simple act of singing a song of worship unto Him can bring such immense peace to quieten a restless mind.

peripheral creatures we are.
a sad, sad reality.
for it necessitates deliberate deviance from instinctual impulses.

the Truth moves mountains.

"You can have the passion for a lot of things, but you can only have true devotion for one or two things at most."
- Pastor Wilson -

just more than i could take, pity for pity's sake.
some nights kept me awake.
i thought that i was stronger.
when you gonna realize.
that you don't even have to try any longer.
do what you want to.

just as inspiration for music should come from within, so should inspiration for holiness.

powerful, yet, gentle and tender.
or so it was thought.

there's only so much that Man can do.

sapphire and faded jeans
i hope you get your dreams
just go ahead, let your hair down
you're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.

~~perfect~~ion at 11:57 PM